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To discuss trauma or not?

Over the years I have encountered many therapists, I have seen people of varying levels of expertise and the way they work has been very different. …

The influence my past has upon my today

Over the past few weeks I have found myself struggling as the past invades my present, my here and now. It came to a head when I received a letter …

Time To Let Go Of My Past

This week I have been trying really hard not to look back, not to keep focusing on my past but instead look towards my future as well as the here and …

Processing the emotions of my past

<b>Please note some people may find this blog difficult, please exercise self care.</b><p>Life’s been a bit tough this past week, tough because I’m in the …

Taking time out helps the healing process

There are times when life feels less stressful than others and times when the opposite applies and life feels a little too overwhelming. Right now as …

Breaking free from medication

As many of you who read my blog regularly will know I have been engaged in therapy now for just over 18months and if I’m honest my life is being …

Care Plan Meeting – treat me as an equal

In recent days I have begun planning for my CPA early next week and I started to think about the things I need to cover in the meeting. After all …

Therapy - what a difference 18 months makes

This week marks the half way point for my therapy, well it’s half way through the agreed three years of funding. I sat in therapy on Monday and …

How Safe Are Your Medical Records?

This week I have found myself being challenged not to explode, not to get angry or annoyed when deep down I feel violated and betrayed. Over the past …

Sharing time

Sharing time can be an adventure, doing fun things can have a whole different meaning when you do things for yourself. This last weekend I took …

When physical health and mental health collide - stigma ensues.

Earlier this week I felt unwell and ended up calling my out of hours doctor, who decided I needed to attend my local emergency room. There followed a …

Having Dissociative Identity Disorder Doesn’t Mean Life Is Over.

Just a few years ago at my lowest point I felt my life was over, I felt as if I would never be any good at contributing to society anymore. I didn’t …

When the tears won’t come

This week I had a tough therapy session focused on processing some baggage from my past, yet despite trying to face up to the difficulties of my past …

Learning more about one of my little me’s

<b>Understanding how to parent myself better</b><p>This week I’ve been thinking about the differences between some of my alters and what the characteristics …

Alters names

People often ask me how do I name my alters; the various parts of me, do I choose their names or do they. I know in the beginning names seemed to …

Its not easy being me

Sometimes it’s not easy having DIssociative Identity Disorder, or being a survivor of child abuse and there are times when you just wish life was …

Body Memory

<b>Trigger warning please exercise self care when reading this post.</b><p>This morning I woke and instantly felt fear, it’s not a pleasant feeling at all but …

Feeling flat and unsettled

Last week I felt excited, I had had a day of little me’s playing and having fun and I had a whole new week to look forward to. Fast forward 7 days …

Juggling the adventures of the little parts of me

Over the past few days I have juggled the needs of all of me, so I’ve been to a conference, played at being a soldier and visited a castle. Sounds …

Funding Update

An update on funding, well I have spent so much time chasing Clinical Commissioning Groups regards my therapy funding this week I think my phone bill …

Funding Crisis

Years ago I was an expensive patient, inpatient care in some rather costly forensic and secure units led to heavy bills for my then PCT, indeed when …

2 envelopes 8 years apart – from suicidal to survivor mum

<b>Trigger warning : please exercise self care.</b><p>This week I came upon an envelope, on the outside were handwritten instructions of desired funeral …

Triggered at the opticians

Triggers creep up on you when you least expect them, causing chaos internally and sending life into a spiral of fear. That’s what happened to me this …

The Blame Game

I’m really not too sure why it happens, I really wish I knew what it was that causes me to take the blame for things going wrong in my life. Yet it …

Forensic Psychiatric Care

<b>Plastic fantastic</b><p>Sitting in the back of my kitchen cupboard lurks a cup, one that I haven’t used for a number of years now but still I can’t throw it …

Internal communication, dialogue and chit chat

There are days when it feels like my alters are far more evident, days when I don’t block them and instead listen away to the cacophony of voices …

Hidden truths -revelations of betrayal

Yesterday I realised just how much some Mental Health professionals have judged me in the past and how because of my Dissociative Identity Disorder I …

Is it time to admit I’m in need of help?

There are times when having DID is a challenge, when I search desperately to be ‘normal’ and yet it doesn’t seem to be in reach. This past week I …

Back to Reality

Well my vacation has finally come to an end, it was a good opportunity to understand my alters better and to be myself, whoever that me might be. Yet …